I've been thinking about my comment early re: maturity. I looked it up on dictionary.com and got these two interesting definitions:

• Having reached full natural growth or development: a mature cell.


• Having reached a desired or final condition; ripe: a mature cheese.

I think that I am immature in respect to both these definitions in some way. Sure, I've reach a level of physical maturity by the first definition but I don't feel I have developed fully or reached the desired condition.
In order to prove or state this categorically I must define what that level is. At the moment I'm a little confused in my mind as to the distinction of enlightened and mature. For me one is mature when one is by buddhist or taoist definition enlightened. This in itself is not a clear definition for me and one that I will explore here in this blog.
I hope to continue to develop both physically, mentally and spiritually through my studies and practice of the taoist arts - at least for now.
I think that this is what I get from t'ai chi - a sense of developing myself on at least the first two of these levels. From what I have read I will have to take my practice a bit further to develop what one might call my spiritual self.

I hope to pop some names up of books that I'm reading shortly and give some insight into how I have assimilated these thus far.