Why this blog?

I've been thinking about why I am curious about what I am. Clearly I'm a human being. I personally think it's likely that my current form evolved from other animals on the planet but its plausible that something created humans in their current form.

What am I?

So tempting to try to answer that in this post, but that is I guess what this whole blog is about for me. I'm reading alot of stuff right now, I've read alot of stuff too... I find that as I read and assimilate things I have an internal dialogue, small sudden realisations, insights and it is these that I wish to document here.

I think back to when I was 14, when I started T'ai chi with the local rising dragon club. I made great leaps in my understanding then of what I was and what I thought a good person was. I can't remember how I thought then, what I thought then and what my dreams were. I find also that I have forgotten and rediscovered some things. I hope that in the future I can look back at this log and see some of what I was and not lose insights.

So I guess this blog is for me, a place to put my musings on what I am, what it is to be human and whatever else my monkey mind springs to.

Ok, need to add another post. This Blog business has been distracting me little by little from my work all afternoon and now I'm off for the weekend and won't be able to update it for a little while.

I have at present got high hopes for this blog. I hope to look at questions about myself here and through expressing these discover something about myself. I feel that I should draw on the experiences of the Introspectionists - a group of psychologists who tried to understand the human mind by trying to apply empirical principals to studying their own thoughts. Many thought that this was a waste of time, as observing behaviour inevitably causes it to change - however I believe the act will help bring some clarity to who I am or at least who I think I am and what I aspire to be. Documenting such a process I hope will change me for the better - if it doesn't or I don't like where its going I'm sure I'll simply stop talking about all that and start discussing computer games which have consumed alot of the 27 years of my life to date. Maybe there'll be some of both.

Sounds pretentious and lofty doesn't it. Perhaps I've already discovered something there then ;)

I have a tendency to write a stream of conciousness, and mine is presently quite noisy and easily distracted. Expect topics such as language and thought, the rise of machines, taoism and christianity, the fall of mankind, what i had for lunch and video games...