went to see "when harry met sally..." show

Its been a good weekend. went to see when harry met sally and met Alexis Denisof and Alyson Hannigan. Oh, and Luke Perry was there too.

That was a very cool show. lots of fun.

T'ai chi was good this week. Started practicing a little pilates - see how it goes.

evanescence gig and sherlock holmes

Went to see evanescence on monday night - damn fine show. There were certain key tracks that really got to me and were done beautifully. In particular I got that whole goosebumps listening to the music thing when the My Immortal track played, most odd, seemed to invoke some emotion in me and it was almost like a catharsis. Indeed Aristotle coined the term to describe "the emotional effect of a tragic drama upon the spectator". A great experience. I may try to whack a few pics in here shortly.

OO, and took my other half round baker street on the way back yesterday to have a look at some of the sherlock holmes stuff.

good day.

time passes

its been a short week at work with much done in it. Good work too, got to play with much of the j2ee software stack. Also attended a very enlightening lecture by david cook, top chap in the bcs. exciting times.

Taichi again tonight

Tried a few new things out. good class - much fun and i haven't crippled myself. Most exciting.

Just ordered Macromedia Studio MX 2004 so hopefully there'll be some more web development from me on the way.

A weekend of bathroom decorating beckons.

Making time

So I'm playing games a little less, reading a little more and making time for a few bits and bobs. Still not practicing as much as I probably should but hey, I'll get there. Just recently got all the way through the Wudang style short form in t'ai chi - the square form. I should explain. In Wudang there are two styles to every form - square and round. Square can be thought of as a teaching style - simplified and broken down into steps, while round is how it was intended to be. So now I know the short form in square and the first (of six) section of the long form in square and round. A way to go yet but getting there.

Still intending to write here about the books. Will get to it.

A new direction

I have in recent weeks discovered how far from my professional goals I had travelled. I have since put some more effort into cpd activities with the BCS and also into reading directed at improving my ability to perform my job.

I have read some interesting texts around leadership, motivating others, why people work. This in itself has been quite a journey for myself as I've discovered obvious factors articulated clearly that have affected my own motivation and that of my team over the past few months. I am also a little clearer on how being present - so crucial to many Taoist and Zen practices - benefits ones work. I have also found a guide to when one should look at the past and the future.

I started this blog to both record my thoughts and give me a place to articulate and construct these thoughts. I still need that even though I haven't found time lately to add new posts. I hope to rectify this as I describe my findings from my recent studies.

more friends are mums and dads

A couple who are good old friends from bristol have just had their first baby. Thomas Sedlen was born 10:58 on friday.

very cool :D

reinstalled computers

well, thats xp installed on my puter again.
seems to run pretty quick - can't tell if thats just the SATA-150 or the RAID-0 stripe.

Just watching a bit of Eliza Dushkus (imdb) new series - tru calling. Interesting premise - groundhog day meets sixth sense. Suffers a bit too much from gratuitous shots of eliza running around the city - she really needs a car or a cycle but beyond that it's look pretty cool.

Birthday today i've had. quiet thing and perhaps deliberately - an excuse for donuts tomorrow though so thats cool :D

I now have a hoard of DVDs to watch too - still collecting more than watching but i'll get there. for now, watching telly and playing too many games :)

currently playing unreal tournament 2004 too much.

also - distinct lack of practice over the past few weeks of t'ai chi free thursdays.

my word its been a while

Well, it certainly seems that distractions are happily keeping me from doing things I used to think were important. These things are still important but with less time due to time spent at work and an ever increasing desire to play and have fun, well, it seems sitting and writing a little about what I've been doing has gone out the window.

So what have i been doing?

Playing unreal tournament 2004 (see below). Been talking to my sis a lot since my nephew was born. Been going to t'ai chi though not last week and this week is my other halfs birthday. Got two SATA drives and RAID-0'd those, will be reinstalling my OS in the coming weekend.

What else? erm. oh, found an excellent tea site.

will write more soon....

I'm an uncle!!!!

My wee nephew was born today (well, friday 19th) at 2.43pm weighing in at 2lbs 6oz. Little fellas healthy but will be in hospital a while until he's big enough to go home. all cool. sis is well too.

sweet dude.

went to t'ai chi thursday night

ankle held up well but i seem to have removed a layer of skin while doing some of the punch pad drills - doh!

I think people are starting to wonder why i am following a hobby that injures me so much. Really must find out what I doing wrong there, clearly I am bad at punching!- punching? how hard can it be? ho hum.

still good class. i am really not very fit and have a long way to go before i am anything like good at freestyle pushing hands. Theres apparently a competition next month that i would like to see but its the 4th of april which is already double booked in my calendar :(

lots of other stuff i have to report but thats for another time i think.

chinese meal

as it turns out i went for a nice chinese meal last night, although woke up in the middle of the night with a migraine. These thankfully are rare now but I'm not sure what it was... likely the food I guess

ankles feeling better today though

nice

I find myself hesitant

After a morning wondering around London going to various meetings and an afternoon at my desk I find that my ankle is complaining. I think the outside tendon is currently lightly stretched and is displeased about it. I am hesitant about going to T'ai chi tonight and concerned that the hesitation is simply laziness masked as concern. I am tired though and my ankle is not great - a third week away from the class would seem advisable.

Is this 30% out of laziness or avoiding 120% with good reason? The latter I think.

Ho hum. Will rest my ankle this evening and practice this weekend.

Been a while huh?

So whats happening now?

Ankles much improved though not 100%. The arnica cream has most certainly helped. I am intending to go to T'ai chi tomorrow night although won't be taking part in the more martial drills. Some parts of the short form are at present beyond the scope of my ankle so I will selective even in the parts of the short form that I will be doing. Still, attending will help my ankle in my opinion - doing what I can do and no more will be as far as I should go.

I don't know if I have mentioned this before but apparently there is a Taoist saying that one should do 70% of what one can do, no more. To do more, to go to 90% or 100% means one risks going to 110% or 120% should an accident occur - such may cause injury. Another instance of this statement concerns eating. Eat until you are 70% full - when too full there is no room to digest ones meal. This one I have difficulty with, being English and inclined to clear my plate at any oppurtunity. Indeed finding the 70% level is difficult. often one doesn't want to do what one is doing so 70% becomes an excuse and becomes 30%. In the case where one wants to do something then 70% easily becomes more. Perhaps then this rule is really about finding a healthy balance. A useful indicator though.

On another note I am now contributing a very little amount to charity.

And now???

well, foot swelled up totally on friday. most impressive. difficult to walk since thursday evening.

the swelling diminished over the past few days to reveal some mean bruises! first appeared on the inside of my foot, then on the outside around monday. Finally some bruises appeared on my toes.

walking has become progressively easier and I'm currently walking at about toddler pace.

I have just popped some arnica cream on and an hour later have improved flexibility in the joint. COOL!

oddly a chap at the t'ai chi class offered me a tincture of arnica at the end of the class when I hurt myself and I turned him down, saying I had some - pride got in the way there. This could well have reduced the healing time had I taken him up on the offer but like many men I dislike being in debt to someone (except possibly faceless credit card companies, loan companies, banks, etc. )

Lessons to learn again.

In other news I now own an Xbox with project gotham 2 and battle engine aquila. My obsession with computer games continues.

Just sat watching jake 2.0 on the telly too - seems like it could be a good series.

so what happened?

well, we were doing a technique where person A punches, person B blocks and controls person A - then sweeps their legs from under them. Done it loads of times, this time I was person A, my right leg was swept - body twisted round as usual, foot didn't move as usual :(

loud crunching noise

not actually loud, sounded loud to me. like snapping celery. bleurgh.

warm feeling in ankle, 5 minutes later difficulty standing on it.

why did the foot not move? a few reasons, me tired, me unprepared a bit, lack of practice, lack of warming up joints. hmm...

many lessons to learn.
sleep. practice. warm up.

as I frequently say, the path is easy to see but its easy not to follow it.

lack of practice takes its toll

so, er, sprained my ankle at t'ai chi this evening.

bottom.

Sufism

I have in the past week grown a little curious about sufism. My first exposure was probably in the film "Romancing the stone". I recall a group of warriors for want of a better term, with a joy of life and a particular outlook.

The thing that brought this to mind was an entry in my "zen - page a day calendar". The specific saying was:
Love the pitcher less,
and the water more.

Cool huh? A very poetic was of saying don't judge a book by its cover and yet so much more. So often we look at the shell of things, yet it is its contents, its purpose, the ordinary thing that nourishes us. One could imagine this being used to describe choosing a partner, don't love the way someone looks, rather what is within, for it is that which support you and help you grow.

It occurred to me at that point I didn't know much about sufism. So, I have ordered a book on the subject (The Shambhala Guide to Sufism) and hunted around the internet a bit too...

from my limited perspective so far i find it interesting. An Islamic tradition that seeks to find purity of mind/spirit by becoming and accepting God, a death of self if you like and the acceptance of something without into oneself. An interesting theme and it seems to me there is much history of wisdom in this tradition.

went back to reading up on taoist practice...

I had in the past considered internal alchemy to be the path for me. I knew it to be a long drawn out process that starts out refining and strengthening ones body and then developing an er, energy body I guess you could call it. I have now finished one of the principal chapters on these techniques and find that they aren't what I thought. Thats not true, they are but to do these things, to become that person I would have to become something I don't want to be. At least not at this time.

Still the internal strength stuff sounds cool - absolutely have to get better at finding time to practice though by crikey! Finding? One makes time for important things. I must make time for this if it is indeed important.

Things to do though...

Lost its track

Reading back through this blog i think its obvious that its track, train of thought or path or whatever has become a little bit distracted for want of a better word. Clearly then, so have I.

I guess I have covered most of the topics discussed in my first post but I do feel I am spending more time on games and toys now than I was before Christmas. I note that in mid-December I would look into the whole give as you earn charitable donation thing - a simple first step to contributing to the world and being a bit of a better person. This I haven't done either. Better do that this week, it is important to me but I seem to be easily distracted by acquiring things and my responsibilities at work. Actually I have discussed before the Taoist view on acquisitiveness. It is harder to go and do the right thing if you are anchored down by belongings. Each thing I buy adds to my responsibilities, my commitment to maintain it and drains on my resources - I am aware of this. However some of these things give me a freedom - purchasing my house feels like it is in this camp. It is by far the largest anchor and commitment I have but it frees me from concerns about where I will live and what if the rent rises etc. Acquisitive I am though.

One thing I have been able to do is share my belongings of late. A friend has recently bought a DVD player and is going through our collection of DVD's, similarly I have lent a number of terry pratchett books out - which by the way are superb. I'll stick one of my ubiquitous ads at the bottom of the post.

I intend to practice my t'ai chi today. I'll post at the end of the day and let you know how I got on.

happy Chinese new year BTW!!!!